repeats

okay, I wrote this late last night. I attempted to post it twice! now is seems that things are posting. hurrah!
I am tempted to re-write but I like the fact that I am "re-animating" a frame of mind from several hours past.

cheers!

back again. its been a while. not an easy couple of weeks. To call it an existential crisis would be an understatement.
Things seem to have worked themselves out for the time being at least.
Several issues had to be dealt with over the past several days.
1. Thesis proposal due (and I have changed subjects several times)
2. Finish up the detail crap from the conference 2 weeks ago
3. Lame job which sorely needed to be quit and so it was
4. General anger at humanity
5. sick (stupid allergies)
6. FUNDING for next semester!
#6 was the doosy. the stress and aggravation won't get much coverage here. I have vowed not to make this site one of vitriol and ranting. I promised.

A thesis subject has been decided upon. I gave my 10 minute pitch before the co-director of the program. Made me feel quite confident. Of course he could have been simply nodding just to get my crazy ass out of his office. I'll take this opportunity to be optomistic...for a change! Anything to survive the next two weeks.
Having dinner and drinks with W, who happens to be a major component in my thesis theory helped quite a bit as well.
On top of that a subject for the final Deleuze paper has been almost reached. I am toying with the idea of investigating his theory of the flashback in film with relation to Bergson's notions of the way in which memory works. Focusing primarily on Alain Resnais film "Providence."
Had a guest speaker in today's final class. Felice Frankel. She is a science photographer. Her work was beautiful. yet she kept reiterating the fact that she didn't see herself as an artist. I found it to be rather confusing. Perhaps she feels she has to take the stance of a "documentor" of a factual science practice and is not actively creating something? Check out her site below.
http://web.mit.edu/felicef/

Still struggling with the idea of memory and film. well not so much with film in particular but the notion of memory in general and how film chooses to represent it.
C came by this evening. thankfully bringing treats! up late. Felt guilty about not blogging. In the face of C, how could I not? He spends quite a bit of time on his. And lo...here I am again.
goodnight.